Summer days

Well, things have been crazy lately. My dog died. He was about 14 years old. He was the best dog I've ever had. I miss him so much. I keep walking in the house expecting Biscuit to be at the top of the steps waiting for me. But as long as he isn't in pain anymore, I'm happy.

Patrick finally asked me to be his girlfriend. He's been waiting for months now. And of course I said yes. He is amazing, and funny. He is so cute and he always says the sweetest things. He tells me I'm beautiful everyday. He always makes me smile. I heard his voice for the first time in months the last night. I was so happy.

I have these feelings like I love him, but we've been best friends for almost a year. But I don't know, its been a while since we've had anything going on besides on Gmail chat. I've always had a thing for him. But I'm just gonna take it slow. I'm scared. I don't want to get hurt again. If we weren't best friends I don't think I'd be able to be open with him or get close to him now. That's probably the only reason that I feel like this about him. I can't wait to see him.

what a freakin' weekend

Well, I don't know about everyone else. But my 4th of July weekend totally sucked. I love 4th of July, the fireworks, the feeling of freedom, and usually the fun. But it wasn't so fun. I got stood up by my best friend, who was only home for 2 days. Then my night plans got screwed up, but Jenny and I still went out to see fireworks. She got to see Josh, and I got to watch and be pissed about how I got stood up by my best guy friend who wanted me to be his girlfriend. I think I've only ever been as mad as I was that day once. So Sunday rolls around. I go to church and then I make a lunch run. Mom finally got home and Jacob text me and wanted me meet him at TCBY. So just as I'm about to leave I get an email and a text from Patrick with an apology and an explanation of why he ditched me. I was absolutely furious. I told him off and felt a little better. Then we started talking a little more and I became less mad. I am still mad at him, but he's still my friend, so it's hard to stay mad at him.

I went on my first date since me and Cody broke up. It was okay. It was kind of awkward and hard. I didn't like it much. Not that it was an awful date, just that it was weird. I felt weird. I don't think I'm gonna do that for a while. And Jacob wasn't really my type. We are really different and I don't think he would be good for me. He is a really nice guy, but I don't know about that. So I'm just gonna enjoy being single for a while. :)


I lied, it was AWFUL.



I really do need to stop procrastinating on my Psych work. So I have to go finish it now.