I heard that song earlier today. I could use a lot of things right now.
I just got back from a nine day cruise. It was nice. Everything was beautiful and I met some nice people. But I haven't talked to Patrick in like two weeks now. And I don't even remember the last time we talked on the phone. I miss him. I realized that when he is here I seem to smother him in a way. I think I need to give him a little space when he gets back and find something else to do besides be with him every second he is here. I'm not complaining, because I love being around him and I would rather be with him all the time than anything else. I know he wants to do other stuff when he comes home though.
I think I can stand to have a little space, but I don't know how much longer I can take him not being here at all and not talking to him at all. I have never felt so lonely. I have been a little lonely and upset, and I thought those times were bad. This time is different. I miss having someone to lay in bed with me and watch movies until I fall asleep. I miss kissing him. I just miss having my best friend to talk with.
I feel like I'm being a baby, getting all upset like this. I'll feel better after some sleep. It helps to get my feelings out on here since I don't talk about them.
