It's 2:25 am

I am obviously wide awake. I rearranged my room and now I'm still up. Maddie is at the bottom of my bed, snoring like a wild beast. Things have been up and down lately. I'm having mixed emotions about everything. I'm almost to the point that I want to make myself stop caring because my feelings are being taken into account. Its really not fair to me. I guess we shall see how things go. Maybe I'll have something more interesting to blog about tomorrow.

i need to blog more

And I hate everything. Nothing is going the way I want it to. And everything seems to be going downhill. Except work, surprisingly.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

Oh, I feel so lazy today. This holiday break was pretty great, can't complain. Christmas was good, New years..well it was good even though I wanted to punch Patrick for being an annoying drunk. But I still love him, of course. Now i guess it is time for me to clock into work.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

Its almost Christmas

And I can't wait! Patrick comes home Monday. I buy his present tuesday. Pick up moms present sometime next week. Ahhh. I'm so excited.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

So much stuff is zooming around in my head right now. I wish I could put my brain on pause so that I might actually fall asleep before I wake up in 7 hours to get ready for work!

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

I just want things to work out. I haven't talked to Patrick since earlier tonight. We didnt exactly make up yet. So clearly, I can't sleep. I have been texting him, but no answer :/ I just want to fix everything. Everything that happened tonight, all of our fighting, i just want us to be happy. But it seems like all we do is fight. Still. I hate when we fight.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5