Hey God,

It's been a while since we talked. And I'm hoping that maybe if I blog some of our conversations that I will keep up with it more often than usual.
I'm so thankful for everything You've done for me, given me, and helped me through. I'm thankful for my family, I don't know where I would be without them. I'm thankful for Cody, he's helped me with so much and I know You put him in my life for a reason. I'm thankful for all the friends I have/had.
Everything hasn't been going as great as I'd like it to. And I'm pretty sure the main reason is my lack of communication with everyone, especially You. I know that's something I need to change. With You, and with Cody if I want things to get better. Its so hard for me to talk about how I feel though. I absolutely hate it. I would rather push everything behind and forget about it. I need you to help me with that.
I know You forgive me for anything that I've done, if I ask for it. But sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have done something and I don't want to ask because I feel to ashamed of it, even though I know You'll forgive me.
One of the last things I struggle with is grudges. And I know thats something that I can't keep doing. Its hard not to, but I am really trying. I've progressed a little bit, I can actually do certain things and talk to a certain person and give her a hug without getting mad or annoyed now. Which I feel is a big step for me right now, and hopefully I'll be able to progress even more.