and I'm left broken hearted.

Not only after breaking up and making a fool out of me, I get this message from Cody today. He was going on about how he loved me, key word "loved", and how he didn't think we could be friends and we should not have any kind of communication for a while. That broke my heart all over again. I cried. I told Patrick, and cried more. He was pissed about it, because I was so upset and crying. He tried to cheer me up and told me not to worry about it. He even told me that I was beautiful, and way too pretty to be crying over some stupid boy, and that I t needed to turn my frown upside down. Haha, thats just like him. But the way he said all of that wasn't in a way that he was trying to make me swoon over him. It was a completely different tone. It made me feel a lot better. He was probably the only reason I was in an okay mood today, besides Wayne and his girl singing. Patrick is without a doubt my very best friend right now. I'm glad I have him to talk to. I get cheered up, and unlike talking to a girl, he tells me when I'm over reacting and when I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it or get over it.
I need to let it go. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I loved Cody with everything. I still love him. I may not have been the best girlfriend and I know I made a lot of mistakes and said and did things I shouldn't have, but despite all of that I never once stopped loving him. And the fact that it seems like he is trying to completely erase me from his life makes it that much harder. It is really hard to not just start crying. I can't even think about it without tearing up. My best friend and boyfriend of two years is gone like that. How am I supposed to deal with that? I knew this would happen. My dad did it, so why not every other guy too. I am incredibly hurt. I know that it will eventually heal, but that will take a while. My feelings are crushed, and my self esteem and confidence aren't so great right now either. It sucks. It takes everything that I have in me to not cry right now.