what a freakin' week

This is rediculous. I have never had such an awful week. So, me and Cody broke up. For the last time. We were supposed to go on our trip to PA together, but I think tomorrow I'm going to tell him to forget it. Its not gonna do anything to help me move on. I never expected it to come to this. Two years ago I was amazed by every little thing he did. The way he looked at me, laughed, smiled, held my hand, and even the corny way he first kissed me. I was shy, and it took me a little bit to open up. We got closer, shared everything, and fell completely in love. Being together as much as possible(probably mistake numero uno). At the time it made me happy. After a while we started fighting and over stupid stuff. We had some major fights, he blew up at me a few times, I gave it right back, and after a few hours of telling eachother why we were mad and arguing, we were right back to two love struck teenagers. Laying out under the stars after sitting at a fire, kissing, making wishes on shooting stars. Through all of that, I realized there were so many signs that I should have seen or taken. The one thing about our relationship that bothered me the most was his temper. I hated when he yelled and cussed and got so mad. It really hurt me. Towards the end of the relationship, I felt like he started to put everything in front of me. Like I wasn't important anymore. That hurt me a lot.
I feel a lot better now that everything that has settled down. I'm not as upset as I was two days ago.

I'm glad me and Jenny are talking again, I really missed her. And me and Billy are getting to be good friends again. He's really cool. I've been talking to Patrick the past few days. So he has cheered me up some. I finally talked about everything tonight. How I was mad, and hurt, and upset.He's being really awesome about it, and making me feel a lot better. All I need is a best friend right now. He's been a pretty good one the past few days. It feels like it used to when we first started becoming friends. I like that.