I STILL

haven't gotten out everything I'm thinking yet, sorry.

I'm eating fudge stripes cookies. I ate healthy yesterday, So a few of these little cookies aren't going to kill me. I had a salad for dinner, and I had some soup for lunch, and a slim fast for breakfast.

Since I blogged about Jenny, I feel like I should blog about Patrick too :) I miss him a whole lot.


He's my other best friend, and boyfriend. He is cute and funny and even though no one else likes him or thinks he's for me, I think he is perfect for me. He makes me happy. I like being with him and talking to him. I like holding his hand, thats my favorite thing in the world. I like driving his jeep, and asking him if I can, even though I know I'll get my way. I like looking at him, and making him smile, and tickling him even though he always gets mad at me when I do. I like teasing him. He's a sweetheart. I hate how when we argue about something, he is usually right. One day I am going to be right about something. And I hate how he laughs at me when I get excited about stuff and I ask him why he is laughing, and he says that its cute how excited I get over little things. And I still haven't figured out why he thinks I sound cute when he calls me and wakes me up from my rare naps that I never get to take.
I still feel awful about how long it took me to give him a chance, I could have been so much happier a year ago when I was still with douchebag and I knew I wasn't happy and being with Patrick was the only reason I felt any happiness at all last year. He didn't make me feel bad about myself, or get mad at me for stupid things and yell at me, or tried to tell me what to do. I really wish I could take that back. The whole time I wouldn't break up with douchebag, I felt like I was hurting him and I wanted to be with him so much. I just couldn't bring myself to let go of what I had been so used to. But I'm glad I finally did, and now I'm really happy. I love him more than anything. I just wish I would have realized that a long time ago.