I want so many things right now.
I want to see Patrick, and I want him to put his arms around me and just let me cry. I want him to hold my hand and kiss my face, and make me smile.
I need him right now. I haven't felt like this before. I feel like crying. I want him here. I feel so lonely tonight. I've been fine for the past few weeks, but today I just hate this so much.

& I feel selfish saying this. Because I know when Patrick reads it he is going to feel bad, and I don't want that at all. Its not his fault.
But I still miss him a lot.
I think I just need to go to sleep.